I Should�ve Taken That Left Turn at Albuquerque |
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2001-03-20 - 09:22 p.m.� Sometimes this is just the way I look. Every so often someone who thinks they know me, or someone who just means well will look at me and ask me "What's the matter?" I will stare back at them with confusion and ask: "What do you mean?" See, apparently one my default blank facial expressions looks like sadness, or in some cases anger. It's purely unintentional, and there is usually nothing behind it. Today for example, I was perfectly content. I had a good day. Nothing was stressing me out, no one pissed me off, nothing went wrong. But this afternoon for some reason, unbeknownst to me, one of the receptionists asked me what was bothering me. She said I looked upset. Nope, I told her. This is just the way I look. Oddly enough, no one ever asks me what's wrong when I actually am upset or angry about something. No one ever suspects anything is wrong when my world is crashing down around. I think I must be really good at putting on a brave face. Maybe that's it right there-- maybe I'm hiding anger or sadness or worry more often then not. Maybe seeing me without my "I'm okay!" face on is a rarity. That's sort of a depressing revelation, but it might not be far from true.
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